DougJul 24, 20201 min readA bad day alreadyAnother broken nights sleep with vivid dreams that again left me feeling desperately sad and lonely when I awoke. I had halved my...
DougJul 23, 20203 min readBroken, not BeatenMy last few blogs have been uplifting I hope and tell a story of the improvement in my mental health as well as my physical health. I...
DougJul 23, 20203 min readHopeHello everyone. The second part of CHIME is H for Hope. This is for me one of the most difficult things to write about. I suppose when...
DougJul 23, 20204 min readStaying ConnectedI had a goods night rest last night, a whole 8 hours although I did suffer from a horrible dream. I died 8 times and each time I was...
DougJul 22, 20202 min readA QuickyIve been busy today. I was up at 2 this morning, ate a cheese omelette at 3,30 whilst watching some old Basil Rathbone Sherlock Holmes...
DougJul 21, 20202 min readFaint Heart.....I do post up snippets of music that we once both enjoyed but it is on my terms. I am ready to listen to them and remember the times we...
DougJul 21, 20202 min readThe StartI had a busy day yesterday. I went to see my sister and went for a lovely walk around Needham Market Lakes. She needs help as well so I...
DougJul 20, 20201 min readThe Book of LoveAnother one of ‘our’ tunes. It’s a simple yet beautiful song that says so much in so little words. That’s what love is I guess!...
DougJul 20, 20202 min readOut and AboutI am slowly returning to the outside world after months of doing nothing but eat and sink deeper and deeper into depression and illness....
DougJul 19, 20204 min readCommunication Breakdown Does she for one moment stop and think of me anymore? I think of her constantly, I cannot think of anything else. I last saw her at 5 o...
DougJul 18, 20201 min readMusicA bitter sweet tune that we once both cried to..... Everybody knows we live in a world Where they give bad names to beautiful things...
DougJul 18, 20202 min readGood PeopleYesterday I went for that lonely drive in the countryside. I needed to stay out of my flat for as long as possible so popped in to an...
DougJul 17, 20204 min readAn empty seat.....I told you all that I would be honest in what I wrote on here. I have held nothing back and that may be to the detriment of how some...
DougJul 16, 20202 min readDoug’s Drastic DietNow I don’t for one moment recommend my own particular method for losing weight but in a strange way I feel so much better. When I was...
DougJul 16, 20203 min readBLACK BOX!You would think that the pills we are given to help in the fight against depression would be perfectly safe. It couldnt be further from...
DougJul 16, 20201 min readDrugs please!I am currently taking the following; mirtazapine 45mg Vensir 75mg Flupentixol 500 microgrammes Zopiclone I have never been on two types...
DougJul 15, 20202 min readBig men don’t cry! It has only been 33 days since I wrapped that cord around my neck and tried to kill myself. In 33 days I have come a remarkably long way....
DougJul 15, 20201 min readA long hard slog! I have had a few really bad days. The utter helplessness when in the grip of a panic attack is truly frightening. You have absolutely no...
DougJul 15, 20201 min readFishing at OrbostIt’s tough to listen to sounds that you shared once upon a time. This is one of them. A wonderful tune and a wonderful memory....
DougJul 14, 20202 min readHindsightIf only we had the chance to turn back the clocks just once. What heartache, sadness and loss for everyone could be sidestepped and drop...