The Recovering Suicide and Loves Labour Lost

So after 10 months of getting food caught in it, birds nesting in it and generally getting everything stuck in it, he’s finally gone. It...

I think I have finally turned that corner. I have had three great days where I have realised that I have been ill for a very long time....

I now weigh in at 86 kgs or 13.5 stone!!! I’ve lost 3 stone in 3.5 months!! Get in! My target weight is 13 stone so I’ll be there by...

Don’t leave it until it’s all too late. Be honest, open and talk to whoever is around you. A full and frank discussion doesn’t leave any...

At 40, Franz Kafka (1883-1924), who never married and had no children, walked through a park in Berlin when he met a girl who was crying...

Today is a good day so far. I had a full nights sleep for the first time in months. It takes work to be happy and confident. There will...

No matter how bad you feel today, please know that there is always a better day ahead. It may feel impossible to have a good day but even...

The first time I’ve seen my daughter since April. One of the most precious things I very nearly lost. These are pictures of things that...

I never thought that this pic, taken at WSC 19 would be so apt. Sometimes I feel trapped and it seems I’m bashing my head against a wall....

It’s world mental health day today. It should be everyday. Everyday we should be checking on family and friends. Just a simple message to...

Another shitty night of nightmares dreams and broken sleep. At least it’s the start of the weekend and I’m alive. I have nothing...

It has been many days since I’ve been here dear reader. All of those jumbled emotions at the start of my journey are slowly falling back...

I’m not a religious person at all but I respect anyone’s beliefs. I know it’s a very popular psalm but the words are beautiful and could...

Fuck you depression and illness. Went out yesterday and bought myself two pairs of jeans with a 32 inch waist. The last time I got into...

Despite my very low mood and the return of my illness I still got up at 5.30 and went to work for a couple of hours. Despite the...

It’s been a tough week. I came off mirtazapine gradually over 2 weeks and halved the dosage of flupentixol. It’s had an awful effect on...

4 months seems like an eternity. Coat Sometimes I have wanted to throw you off like a heavy coat. Sometimes I have said you would not let...

Some ramblings from May 2017. I’d just got out of hospital after one of my near misses! There is always humour at the darkest of times.