Panic. Don’t panic

Here is how anxiety and depression and panic can ruin your day.

I had got up yesterday and was feeling very good and optimistic for a while. I was over at my mums painting her shed and putting up a roller blind. then got a call on my phone from ‘An unknown caller. Number withheld’. It completely ruined my whole day. I grew very anxious and started to panic thinking it was something serious. I felt nauseous and when I actually sat down to a very rare light lunch I just couldn’t eat anything. Who was it? What had I done? Who’s said something? Was my family ok? The call a few months ago would have meant absolutely nothing and now, even the next morning I’m worrying. I can feel the panic bubbling just under the surface, the back of my neck hot and my stomach rolling.

Catastrophic thinking is ruining my life at the moment. No matter what I do I am always wondering what is going to go wrong today, rather than what will go well. It’s crippling me and I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought I was getting better a lot quicker than I actually. It’s one thing after the other. If anyone had mentioned to me a few months ago, anxiety, panic attacks, and catastrophic thinking I would have laughed and said it’s a load of rubbish.