Well Dear Readers it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything of great length or meaning in this here journal of life! What on Earth have I been up to you ask? Well I assume you’re wondering otherwise you wouldn’t be here would you!
Well, the final chapter in my love life closed in May. R got in touch and I don’t really know why. We had an almost pleasant conversation on the phone and exchanged a few s mails which unfortunately didn’t end well. I don’t know what I’ve done to earn her enmity and I really wish we could have met one final time to clear the air. Sadly it wasn’t my choice and that’s that. I wish her well in her journey.
Other major news is that I’ve spent quite a long time being a trainee field archaeologist on a very important dig. I was due to visit the dig as a volunteer through my WAVES course through Suffolk Mind just for 2 days. It actually turned into 18 days and I’ll tell you for why!
In anything I do in life ( apart from relationships it seems) I like to try my best. In 18 days I went from digging a trench to finding possible features ( a post hole) to excavating it, recording finds, drawing the excavation and recording it on context sheets. I even ended up training other people.
It was always an ambition of mine to be a historian or archaeologist. Even as a 9 year old I had my own fossil museum which housed numerous rocks from the building sites I played on. I even had an extensive library of 3 books and my prized possession was a large heavy fossilised branch that I made my dad carry for miles out of a Derbyshire river. At the age of 14 I saw in the East Anglian Daily Times that Sutton Hoo was to be re excavated! I wrote to a Professor Carver who was in charge asking to go on the dig. Much to my surprise I got a reply saying he’d love to have me come and help. Unfortunately I didn’t get to go and my life went on a dramatically different route of low paid unskilled jobs.
I cannot explain the excitement of being involved in such an important dig linked to Kind Raedwald and Sutton Hoo. Everyday I looked across the valley and made sure I wasn’t in some dream. Every handful of dirt I moved was like those lucky dip games at the funfair, a big barrel of sawdust hiding glorious treasures! The amount of endorphins dumped into my brain throughout the entire day should’ve been enough to make a woolly mammoths smile. The sense of being part of something extremely important, to have purpose and meaning again was so empowering that it almost overwhelmed me. Many of the items that I found hadn’t been handled in hundreds of years, some hadn’t seen the light of day in thousands. What an honour and a privilege to perhaps change the course of history with what has been discovered!
In order not to suffer a huge crash I’ve now joined the Suffolk Institute of Archaeology and history and the Suffolk Archaeology Field Group. Because of this I got to meet one of my heroes on Sunday, none other than Carenza Lewis of Tine Team. This is now on YouTube and I was involved in their second dig in search of a Saxon Princess. So my archaeological journey is far from complete and I hope to get a lot more involved in the future.
In other news.
My granddaughter Esme continues to grow more beautiful each day and I fall in love with her more and more. It’s her first birthday very soon and I’ve bought her a tiny silver bangle.
My mental health is generally on the up and I continue to learn more about myself each day. I’m determined to beat the demons that have trailed after me my entire life. Physically I have been told that I have Haglunds deformity in my feet. This is where the tendons that attach to your heel bone have turned into bone! Sounds awful doesn’t it and believe me it is! It’s extremely painful and has been for years. I’ve stopped playing football and doing keep fit and I’ve been told there’s a 6 month wait time for the operation. This is where they cut the Achilles’ tendon and shave the heel bone and then reattach the tendons then tie them up with elastic! So I’ll be back playing footie by next July!
So I move on with my life. Still confused as to where it all went wrong and still asking myself questions on how I could do it all over with the knowledge I have now!
Till next time! Be kind xxx
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