Well tomorrow I’ll be 55 years old! Not once, not ever did I think I’d reach this age, particularly after the past 6 years I’ve had! I like to think of myself as a young 55…… outwardly anyway. I wear my own style regardless of what people think. Inwardly I’m about 80!
So what has my year been like? Well the major news is that I became a grandad in October to the beautiful Esme, the daughter of Ewan my son and his wonderful partner Sophie. I’m so proud of all of them, I thought that I’d never get to hold a grandchild. I was always nagging at them ‘When are you going to make me a grandad?’ and I’m so pleased that I will get to see her grow up. I can’t wait until I’m allowed to take her out shopping!
In other news and quite as beautiful, I heard my daughter read for the first time at the age of 26.. When she became ill I told myself that she’d be ‘normal’ by the time she was 16. That year passed and although I gave up, my daughter never has. She continues to surprise me and only last month I heard her read out aloud. I cried, I couldn’t believe it. She has been brave and determined and funny and is now leading a life almost independent, having moved into her own flat! The brain is an amazing organ. My daughters has continued to rewire and remap itself and I’m so very proud of the beautiful person she has become. Only today she is on a train on her own!
Work wise I’ve been busy. I’ve played some lead roles in three indie short films. 2 bad guys and 1 suicidal! I’ve been in 2 drama documentaries and worked with and met Hugh Laurie on Why didn’t they ask Evans. I’ve played a soldier in The Nevers and best of all I played Rhys Ifans bodyguard in House of the Dragon. I’ve spoken to him and Matt Smith, Emma Darcy gave me a look and Rhys Ifans was a great laugh. I’ll release a short blog of when I was on set when it’s released in August. I’ve played the Chief Constable of Kent police for their museum film. I’ve been an extra in straight to video films. I was auditioned by a Hollywood casting director to play the part of a submarine commander in the new mission impossible film. It would’ve been fantastic to get it, 2 scenes and loads of lines. Unfortunately it wasn’t meant to be. I’m currently in the mix for a new adventure show for channel 4….. watch this space! In December I finally managed to play the big man himself Father Christmas!! I loved it far nicer than being Scrooge!
I’ve been accepted into a new archaeological dig in Rendlesham on a palace connected with King Raedwald in the Summer and other stuff has been ticking over. I’m poor but so rich in experience.
Physically I’m up and down. Sometimes I go on a fitness splurge and others I vegetate in front of the tv. This all depends on my mental state! Mentally I’m getting there. I’m finally on the WAVES course which over a year will help me deal with my EUPD. Generally I’ve been on the up with one or two incidents of an emotional collapse for which I hope I’ve apologised. I think that’s why I’ve resigned myself to being single, who on Earth wants to wake up next to someone they may not recognise.
The future. Well, I’m still in my flat. I’ve looked at bigger places on the council list but they are in horrible areas. Despite all the memories good and bad that my flat holds I still enjoy it’s feeling of safety. Sirens still bother me but not as much as they used to. I’m travelling further along the right road now although I’m leaving parts of me behind that don’t want to move on. I’m hoping that paid film work will pick up as House of the Dragon has already been given another season! I remain celibate, single and generally happy and I’m optimistic for the future. I tell myself I’m happy on my own but miss cuddling and talking to someone about my day or theirs.
So happy Birthday to me!!! Cards money gifts please send to me asap! Anyone with cake is always welcome to come and see me.
Victor Ivanavich for Amazon Prime
Epping 2021
Hightower Guard. House of Dragons
Kent’s Chief Constable
On set of The Nevers
Lovebirds and Ladyloves
Esme
My beautiful daughter
Why didn’t they ask Evans?
Bad guy
Historical documentary
A dragons egg!!
More armour
My armour
Straight to video
Happy birthday for tomorrow. I have been catching up on your last half dozen blogs. Nice to know that another person in their 50s is rubbish at housework. I blame MS. And hedgehogs 🤣
And the year is only half done, have a fantastic birthday 🎂 enjoy your day, move forward one step at a time and if you feel you are stepping backwards, sit down wait until that feeling leaves you, then take another step. You have done so much and come so far. I always think about what my Dr said to me, think about what you can do not what you could do.