This is me. Nearly broken. Nearly threw it all away, family, life and a future. Now I have it all back. Not quite reborn but a different person with strength passion and hope. I guarantee that if I can come back from hanging from a rafter to who I am today, you can too.
I didnt wake up in hospital with a feeling of profound change…… of being different. I woke up covered in sick, in shock, disappointed at being alive, angry at surviving and frightened. Frightened and confused at the enormity of what I had tried to do. I was in complete shock and so very tired. Tired of living my life with illness both physical and mental, Id spent weeks trying to contact her, who I foolishly thought was my last chance at happiness, my last throw at being normal. In the daylight I can now see that there is a future for me. Whether thats alone or in a relationship I dont know. Thats what is so exciting about tomorrow, you never know what will come your way. Im thankful im still here to discover what the future holds.
I, amongst many others, are very glad you are still here too. If only so I can point at a screen and tell people "I know him" 😘. Seriously, sometimes we have to lose what we thought was the only thing/person that mattered to find out there is so much more that we just couldn't see. You are a Father, Grandfather, friend and actor. Sounds good to me. X
There will always be someone out there who will love you for who you are, even if, in your reality, you can't accept it.