A new beginning

This is me. Nearly broken. Nearly threw it all away, family, life and a future. Now I have it all back. Not quite reborn but a different person with strength passion and hope. I guarantee that if I can come back from hanging from a rafter to who I am today, you can too.

I didnt wake up in hospital with a feeling of profound change…… of being different. I woke up covered in sick, in shock, disappointed at being alive, angry at surviving and frightened. Frightened and confused at the enormity of what I had tried to do. I was in complete shock and so very tired. Tired of living my life with illness both physical and mental, Id spent weeks trying to contact her, who I foolishly thought was my last chance at happiness, my last throw at being normal. In the daylight I can now see that there is a future for me. Whether thats alone or in a relationship I dont know. Thats what is so exciting about tomorrow, you never know what will come your way. Im thankful im still here to discover what the future holds.